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Before I get into my thoughts for the evening, I'd like to state how awkward it feels to be addressing my thoughts to no audience. Anyways.

They say college is where you find yourself. They said the same thing about high school, then about senior year. I'm starting to assume that everyday is a day that you are supposed to discover more about yourself. There's never a moment where you can sit and say you've arrived to where and who you want to be in life. There's too many people in the world and too many situations that can ruin that split moment for you.

I believe I use the word 'awkward' too much to describe myself. Other people may call me Negative Nancy, others just call me rude. Whenever I feel that way I just prefer to go into hiding. I usually start to feel a sense of rejection before I know it is time for me to take a break from my normal surroundings.

When you're in a new place and a new environment, your first instinct is to meet as much people as you can and go to as much places as you can and do so many freedom activities now that you have no one to tell you when to go to sleep. That was me, kind of, last week. But now my high is gone and I'm ready to be myself again. I shouldn't have to wait to feel rejected in order to snap back into reality.